Queer Writing The Nation
How many centuries have you been
denying my existence?
How many generations will you
deny me the right to live?
How long will you deny my pain
and suffering?
How many years did you
depersonalize my identity?
How long did you dehumanize me?
How many decades have I suffered from your
expressions?
How long will I be on the road?
How long
before you kill me with your stone pelting?
How long
should I live without any basic education?
How long
should I survive without any human dignity, self-respect, worth, or esteem?
How much have
I contributed to scientific thinking?
How much did
I change your traditional opinion of me?
How much have
I changed the mind set of human rights organizations?
How much have
I changed the minds of feminists and Marxists?
I am not your
Tom Tom.
I am a human.
I need human
dignity, worth, respect, equality.
I am no
longer your stone-to-death victim.
I don’t need
your sympathy.
I don’t need
your invitation to bless your child.
I want human
status.
I am natural,
just like you.
I am normal,
just like you.
I was born
human.
Respect my
expression.
Respect my
identity.
Respect my
individuality.
Respect my
freedom.
Respect my
desires.
Respect my
subaltern expression.
I am not a
materialist like you.
I am not a
capitalist like you.
I'm not a
feudal lord like you.
I am not a
cine producer like you.
I am a simple
but ordinary human being.
I wish every
human being could live together.
But you are
chaining me with your humiliation.
You are not
recognizing my scientific approach?
I am your
age-old victim.
You
victimized me for centuries upon centuries without human status.
I lived my
entire life without a human identity.
I lived as a
beggar.
I lived my
life as a transgender person.
I lived my
life as a gay man.
I lived as a
lesbian.
I lived as a
bisexual.
I lived as a
gay man.
I want to say
proudly that I am queer.
Can you allow
me to express my identity?
Your words
are killing me.
Your eyes are
killing me.
Your thoughts
are killing me.
Your male
chauvinism is killing me.
Your feminity
is killing me.
Your
traditional ideology is killing me.
I want to
survive.
I am a
survivor now.
The queer communities in India are walking-carrion, particularly
the trans and Dalit queers, who are the most vulnerable in the Indian
sub-continent. Let us not be silent about queer rights. Queer rights are human
rights.
Suryaraju Mattimalla, Author of "Why I Am Not
Indian: The Untouchable Rejecting India's Citizenship" (https://www.amazon.de/-/en/Suryaraju-Mattimalla-ebook/dp/B09MDXFTY2/ref=sr_1_2?qid=1637756966&qsid=261-0591308-5553230&refinements=p_27%3ASuryaraju+Mattimalla&s=digital-text&sr=1-2&sres=B09MDZM1Q2%2CB09MDXFTY2&text=Suryaraju+Mattimalla)
Author of “Dalit/Untouchable Anthology: Untouchable Lived
Experiences” (https://www.amazon.de/-/en/Suryaraju-Mattimalla/dp/B09M5B7XVS/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=Dalit%2FUntouchable+Anthology&qid=1638451224&sr=8-1)
Author of “An Intellectual History of Anti-Caste Philosophers in
India: A Study on Babasaheb Dr.B.R.Ambedkar” (https://www.amazon.de/-/en/Suryaraju-Mattimalla/dp/B09M785T3S/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=An+intelectual+history+of+anti-caste+philosophers+in+indien%3A+A+study+on+Babasaheb+Dr.B.R.Ambedkar&qid=1638746824&sr=8-1)
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