What have you seen in me?
I traveled three
thousand kilometers to see her.
I dared to call
her.
The phone is
ringing and ringing.
She lifted the
phone.
I heard a voice.
Who is this from
the other side?
It is me from this
side.
Oh, you're here,
how come?
I just came to see
you.
Stunned
What have you seen
in me?
I don’t know, but
I feel like seeing you.
Okay
Tell me, what have
you seen in me?
I have no reason
to love you.
Okay
But there is a
sense in which you
There is a sense
to your name.
Okay
What do you want?
I just want to see
you.
Have you traveled
three thousand kilometers to see me?
Yes
Okay, where do you
stay now?
I stayed in a
hotel.
Okay, what is the
hotel's name?
I mentioned the
hotel's name.
Okay, wait. I will
come to see you tomorrow at 11:00 am.
Okay
Meanwhile, I
shared it with a hotel receptionist.
He asked my caste
directly.
I said I was
untouchable.
He said you had
better leave this place quickly.
Did I ask why?
They are coming to
kill you.
Why?
He said they don’t
like your untouchables.
I said she is not
a Hindu.
He said we Nagas
hate untouchables.
But we love
Brahmins.
You should leave
it to your life.
I said she didn’t
threaten me.
He said it was up
to you.
She lied to you.
I said no, she did
not lie to me.
He said,
"Please leave my hotel now."
I asked him why?
He said they are
powerful in Nagaland.
He asked, Do you
know their background?
I said I know.
Then you should
leave Dimapur.
I replied that I
would wait for her.
He said with fear,
"It's your life.
Waiting and
waiting for the next day
Before 11:00 a.m.
Three Tata Sumos
full of boys
Attacked me physically
Beating me in
front of everyone
Tearing my shirt
They took my pant
off.
They took off my
shirt.
I am naked.
They are calling
me "Dalit Bastard." How dare you love my girl?
I am shocked.
They are
repeatedly using the same word, "Dalit bastard."
They were beating
and beating me.
They dragged me in
front of a police officer.
I do not have
clothes.
They made me sit
in front of a police official naked.
They are recording
video.
They asked me to
kneel.
I am shocked.
I am still in a
shocking mood.
They are laughing
and making fun of my caste and skin color.
A police official
with IPS rank is a Kshatriya Singh.
He sternly said,
"Do you know her background?"
I said yes, I
know.
Her men said,
"We hate you, Dalit bastard."
We hate you.
We don’t need you.
He was beating me
with his foot.
My heart was
broken into pieces.
Its cracked mirror
is
Caste is omnipresent,
even among the caste-less Nagas
The IPS officer
handed me over to his subordinate.
The sub-inspector
of police knows my case.
He said slowly.
Our Naga girls and
boys hate the Untouchables.
They beat you and
humiliated you.
Because you are
untouchable with dark skin
We Nagas hate
dark-skinned people.
We married
thousands of Brahmins.
Our boyfriends and
girlfriends are Brahmins.
Even though
Brahmins hate us, we love them.
Because of their
social status in India,
We Mongolians love
Brahmins so much.
But you are
untouchable.
We Nagas have
ethnic groups.
We don’t even
marry other ethnic people within our Naga society.
He said he was
also a love failure.
He said he loved
his opposite, a Naga ethnic girl.
Their parents,
families, and elders rejected their love.
He was crying.
I have seen his
tears.
He said he was a
Sema Naga.
The woman is
another ethnic Naga.
He stated that
you adored me, ethnic girl.
But she sent her
boys to abuse you.
He said, "I
respect you a lot for loving my girl."
But she does not
love you.
She does not
deserve your love.
He said and
dropped me at the airport.
Be careful.
Leave our place.
Take care of your
life.
See you.
Bye-bye.
I reached Delhi.
I phoned her
She lifted my
phone call.
I asked her why
she humiliated me?
She replied
If you really love me, then don’t ever show your face.
An Untouchable's One-Way Love Story with a Naga Woman spans twenty years. (2002-2022)
Dr.
Suryaraju Mattimalla , Author of "Why I Am Not Indian: The Untouchable
Rejecting India's Citizenship"(https://www.amazon.de/-/en/Suryaraju-Mattimalla-ebook/dp/B09MDXFTY2/ref=sr_1_2?qid=1637756966&qsid=261-0591308-5553230&refinements=p_27%3ASuryaraju+Mattimalla&s=digital-text&sr=1-2&sres=B09MDZM1Q2%2CB09MDXFTY2&text=Suryaraju+Mattimalla)
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