What have you seen in me?

What have you seen in me?

I traveled three thousand kilometers to see her.

I dared to call her.

The phone is ringing and ringing.

She lifted the phone.

I heard a voice.

Who is this from the other side?

It is me from this side.

Oh, you're here, how come?

I just came to see you.

Stunned

What have you seen in me?

I don’t know, but I feel like seeing you.

Okay

Tell me, what have you seen in me?

I have no reason to love you.

Okay

But there is a sense in which you

There is a sense to your name.

Okay

What do you want?

I just want to see you.

Have you traveled three thousand kilometers to see me?

Yes

Okay, where do you stay now?

I stayed in a hotel.

Okay, what is the hotel's name?

I mentioned the hotel's name.

Okay, wait. I will come to see you tomorrow at 11:00 am.

Okay

Meanwhile, I shared it with a hotel receptionist.

He asked my caste directly.

I said I was untouchable.

He said you had better leave this place quickly.

Did I ask why?

They are coming to kill you.

Why?

He said they don’t like your untouchables.

I said she is not a Hindu.

He said we Nagas hate untouchables.

But we love Brahmins.

You should leave it to your life.

I said she didn’t threaten me.

He said it was up to you.

She lied to you.

I said no, she did not lie to me.

He said, "Please leave my hotel now."

I asked him why?

He said they are powerful in Nagaland.

He asked, Do you know their background?

I said I know.

Then you should leave Dimapur.

I replied that I would wait for her.

He said with fear, "It's your life.

Waiting and waiting for the next day

Before 11:00 a.m.

Three Tata Sumos full of boys

Attacked me physically

Beating me in front of everyone

Tearing my shirt

They took my pant off.

They took off my shirt.

I am naked.

They are calling me "Dalit Bastard." How dare you love my girl?

I am shocked.

They are repeatedly using the same word, "Dalit bastard."

They were beating and beating me.

They dragged me in front of a police officer.

I do not have clothes.

They made me sit in front of a police official naked.

They are recording video.

They asked me to kneel.

I am shocked.

I am still in a shocking mood.

They are laughing and making fun of my caste and skin color.

A police official with IPS rank is a Kshatriya Singh.

He sternly said, "Do you know her background?"

I said yes, I know.

Her men said, "We hate you, Dalit bastard."

We hate you.

We don’t need you.

He was beating me with his foot.

My heart was broken into pieces.

Its cracked mirror is

Caste is omnipresent, even among the caste-less Nagas

The IPS officer handed me over to his subordinate.

The sub-inspector of police knows my case.

He said slowly.

Our Naga girls and boys hate the Untouchables.

They beat you and humiliated you.

Because you are untouchable with dark skin

We Nagas hate dark-skinned people.

We married thousands of Brahmins.

Our boyfriends and girlfriends are Brahmins.

Even though Brahmins hate us, we love them.

Because of their social status in India,

We Mongolians love Brahmins so much.

But you are untouchable.

We Nagas have ethnic groups.

We don’t even marry other ethnic people within our Naga society.

He said he was also a love failure.

He said he loved his opposite, a Naga ethnic girl.

Their parents, families, and elders rejected their love.

He was crying.

I have seen his tears.

He said he was a Sema Naga.

The woman is another ethnic Naga.

He stated that you adored me, ethnic girl.

But she sent her boys to abuse you.

He said, "I respect you a lot for loving my girl."

But she does not love you.

She does not deserve your love.

He said and dropped me at the airport.

Be careful.

Leave our place.

Take care of your life.

See you.

Bye-bye.

I reached Delhi.

I phoned her

She lifted my phone call.

I asked her why she humiliated me?

She replied

If you really love me, then don’t ever show your face.

An Untouchable's One-Way Love Story with a Naga Woman spans twenty years. (2002-2022)

Dr. Suryaraju Mattimalla , Author of "Why I Am Not Indian: The Untouchable Rejecting India's Citizenship"(https://www.amazon.de/-/en/Suryaraju-Mattimalla-ebook/dp/B09MDXFTY2/ref=sr_1_2?qid=1637756966&qsid=261-0591308-5553230&refinements=p_27%3ASuryaraju+Mattimalla&s=digital-text&sr=1-2&sres=B09MDZM1Q2%2CB09MDXFTY2&text=Suryaraju+Mattimalla)

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